New beginnings through endings and loss
Moving through grief, ending cycles, and the call for soulful healing
March was intense, wasn’t it?
If you’re into astrology, you might know that the Venus retrograde and eclipse portal were all about our relationships; how we see love, how we love ourselves and others, and allow ourselves to be loved. It’s been a notoriously turbulent time and we’re all (myself included) feeling like our world has shifted in profound ways.
Many of us have been moving through themes of endings, closure, and even literal death.
For me, March brought a lot of cycle endings; one being the loss of a dear friend. Despite having lost all my grandparents, it’s the first loss that has truly hit me hard. My friend was a beautiful, caring, ’alive’ soul. That alone is enough for me to grieve the loss of her energy in the world deeply. But she also brought a maternal energy to my life that has otherwise been lacking. Her loss stirred up the layers of grief I carry for my first family, my birth mother, and my entire maternal line. She left another motherly feeling hole in my life that only seems to make the ones I’ve been carrying feel even greater.
Immediately after her funeral, I was hit by a really bad cold that knocked me out and killed my appetite (that never happens) for several days. It’s like my body forced me to stop to process her death and everything else that had been going on.
Though I still feel the pain of her loss tremendously, I’m thankful for the lessons she’s taught me in life and in death. Alongside my recent Root Cause healing sessions and deep relational healing, I’m feeling a big shift in how I want to open myself up to the sense of belonging and of chosen, soul family.
Someone once said, that the deeper the trauma, the more soulful the healing.
(When I refer to spirituality or soulfulness, I simply mean connecting with one’s soul).
There is no separation between working with the body, the mind, and the soul. In my work, they are ‘One’.
My healing is leading me to discover more ancestral energy and past lives while in my work, I’m attracting more ‘old souls’ attracted to Root Cause Healing. We seemingly feel called to break cycles that started long, long before our lifetimes.
Feeling everything soulfully in an otherwise soulless society full of capitalism, surface-level connection, and genocidal tragedy can be a painful, heart-breaking burden to carry. But in the same breath, it is our sensitivity to our souls’ existence that lets us feel the fullest love for others, the joy of discovering our authenticity, and the peace of knowing that we have truly ‘Lived’.
What does your soul want you to know as we arrive in the new astrological year?
What is your soul calling for in the next chapter of this life?
When your soul stirs, can you feel it?
“I love working with Kellan. When I first came to them, I knew I needed to shift how I was showing up in my life, but I wasn’t sure how. Kellan met me with so much understanding and empathy, and in just a few weeks—plus two root cause sessions—I’ve experienced a profound change. I feel more connected to myself, my relationships, and the world around me. For the first time in my life, I’m allowing myself to be truly vulnerable, and it’s making such a difference. I’m so grateful for this journey and excited to continue deepening the healing”
- Anon (they/he)
Tend to your souls.
Until next time,
Kellan from Kai Ming Holistics (they/them)
Somatic Processing, Embodied Breathwork, and Root Cause Therapy
(BSc, PGCert, IICT)
